I can`t remember when the steps become getting heavier with every heartbeat when walking away from the carnival. Looking back the fest was not tho the easiest thing one could have. All the happy and joyous faces have the best and most extraordinary day of their life. Children make joyful screams and wait for their turn on the ride while the couples enjoy their golden time by holding hands and making their life alive. The memory of that carefree moment was overshadowed by the realization that it was not effortless as it seems. The cheerful laughter echoed in my mind creating a stark reminder of how their life is eagerly waiting for their actual turn. Amongst the couple strolling hand in hand, I see the craving for love and intimacy. But within their intertwined fingers and shared glances, there was a smell of vulnerability and unspoken fears which keep reminding me that every relationship carries its own burden.
It is easy to believe that in this vibrant carnival, everyone is finding their own source of solace and happiness in a sea of strangers. But the presence of the crowd didn`t accomplish to veil the isolation everyone is carrying inside. Somewhere a clown is carrying a loud cry to the audience, somewhere the performer pouring their heart into the performance is wishing to get a genuine connection with someone who craves their act and values the spotlight, and sometimes a lost soul betrays their own deep sorrow and finding here a temporary shelter to mask their pain in this chaos.
As I walked away from the carnival further, a bittersweet ache settled within me. The echo of the crowd collapsed with the murmuring sound of my thoughts and the bright light started to fade slowly. It is a reminder for us that life is woven with light and darkness in both high and lite pitches. It is we who forget to acknowledge the raw and vulnerable emotions which hold and us.
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